God's plan is far greater than my own plan for our life

You read it right my friends....

GOD'S PLAN IS FAR GREATER THAN THESE PLANS I HAVE FOR MYSELF AND OUR LIFE

And the same goes for your life as well.

Even YOU!

I say this to lead up to this...

I got up this morning, knots in my stomach, nervous as all get out because since starting this journey 6 years ago, I have never been regular with my monthly visitor or "Aunt Flo" as us Infertile Myrtle's like to call it. The past 2 years since starting aggressive treatment with our current and most favorite Doctor, I have been 28-30 days on my cycle which is HUGE for me!! So, being any day "late" on Aunt Flo is a big deal and causes much stress and nervousness and excitement....

With that said, I tested this morning...And got a big fat negative...again...

I sat and cried for a minute or two and then slowly realized in that time of sadness and disappointment that God has a bigger plan for us. Brandon and I have been talking a lot about adoption and other more aggressive treatment options for us. Maybe those are our paths we should take....From this point we are to just remain faithful and continue praying to God and praising Him for his blessings and for getting us this far in our journey, to where we know what our issues are and for the lesson we are learning more and more everyday....WAIT...ON....GOD....

Yes, wait on God. He knows our destiny and our next move or next step before we ever do! He knows the outcome and we are to just trust in Him and keep our faith in Him to give us what we NEED. God will always provide, just not when we want Him too. He works on His own time and His own schedule...Not ours.

This month is another reminder that I need to keep pursing Him and quit trying to make things happen for myself. Over the past 2 to 3 months I have lost myself in grief and disappointments....I lost God in that too but its time to get back up, dust off and keep going....Stronger than before.

 Please keep us in your prayers. We still have a long way to go and we are not going to give up just yet. When God tells us it is time to sit back from the treatment and just go a different path, then we will do that. But until then, I am still going to take a break, pray without ceasing, trust in Him to bless us with our baby, and wait to start another cycle just yet with our Doctor.

Love you all!! <3 I pray you guys have a great week!!

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Let your Faith be bigger than your Fears

Its been a while my faithful readers! I sat here and thought today "Man, I NEED to blog tonight". I just get these days where blogging is such an outlet for me. Its a release that is unexplainable. It clears my mind and I do not do it near as often as I should. I see some blogs where people post their every move and like 6-10 posts a day. I don't want to bore you guys so I will NEVER post 6-10 posts a day...Unless, I get pregnant...Then my friends, this blog will be blowed up with posts! LOL

So, where are we? Yes, I have been asked this sooooo much in the past couple of weeks. So many times I can't count on my fingers and toes....

WE ARE STILL WAITING!

Yes my friends, we are still on the wait. We have not made plans for starting back with treatment just yet. We have been actively charting and trying at home and I am now.......8 DAYS LATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Of course this DOES NOT mean I am pregnant but its farther than we have been in a long time. For the past 2 years I have gotten on a regular schedule with my "Aunt Flo" and last month was dead on 29 days. This month has not been the case. I took a HPT (Home Pregnancy Test) on the 6th day and it was negative but I have been told to not test until Day 10 or further just to make sure the HcG is prominent in the urine. So...now I have to wait until then and see what God has in store for us. We are not giving up although it has crossed my mind often. But we shall see.

This Saturday July 12th, my hubby and I celebrated 6 years of marriage. Today we have been together 12 years and 10 months. WOW! I can't even believe it myself because it doesn't seem like we have been together this long. We have so much to be thankful for even though the past 6 years have brought about much tragedy and heartache. God has placed us in some amazing places at amazing times to meet new people and lead them where they needed to be in order to reach for their dreams. For that I am ever so grateful and thankful. Even if I never get my prayer answered for a baby, I will still be here to advocate for women who are suffering from Infertility and need inspiration, hope and guidance. So just always know this!


Please join us in praying for our baby we have yet to be blessed with. We are ever so grateful and thankful for all of the prayers you guys send up for us! God knows our future and he knows our hearts. When he gets ready, he will bless us with way more than we have ever dreamed of and ever prayed for. He is faithful to those who keep their faith in Him. Brandon and I have all of our faith in Him. Right where it needs to be.

We love you guys. I know I do not update often but you must know how hard this journey is for me. One day I am all for talking about it and blogging about it but some days, no matter how much faith and trust you put in God, you still have times where you just want to lay in bed and cry all day because what you want more than anything in this world is so far away from your reach. I will update at soon as I work the nerve up to take another test within the next few days. I am not getting my hopes up but I know that God already knows the outcome.